好像无路可走，却又好像四通八达的交叉口…… 今天的lesson是谦虚多问，不要什么事都逞强要自己figure it out，最后事半功倍。不过下一步看来要给自己找点后路了，不能做hot potato被丢来丢去。但又不能太大张旗鼓，但时间也不富裕，一个月之内要有个大概方向。加油！也许it's time for step two.

ah~~ enjoying the somewhat chilled-ness after holiday, the day seems to flow nicely and not so hectic 24/7. with that said, just found out that we have to prepare for our annual review soon... uhhh needless to say im not super confident about my performance up to now, tho i tried beyond my best, but there's no A for effort in real work, results are results, and they are not so hot >.> to be honest i don't think its unfair if i dont get a raise, i just hope i dont get kicked out... T.T cuz i spent so much energy learning the ropes that it wud be a shame to not put it to use when i finally have time to think now...

*sigh* fingers crossed~ and will try to be super good in the mean time...

6:00pm: arriving after having a taco bell salad, tape and labels in hand ready to sweep the floor
8:00pm: starting to freak out a bit with leftover prep work
9:00pm: running around like crazy trying to finish everything, i think i eventually had a couple tables that i forgot to tape >.> but at least my maps were clear enough to make the search later not too difficult
10:00pm: scanning swarm is all over, i was slowly learning how i could help w/o any prior knowledge to what happens/what could go wrong during inventory
12:00am: scanning well in progress, no-tickets is worse than i thought but not a diaster (could be a lot worse if we didn't finish those first 10 racks in juniors last sunday... *shudder*
2:00am: starting to feel a little out of it, I think lingerie and juniors was closed or (close to being closed at that point), so I was pretty "phew", just finishing up and making sure floor is recovered. was feeling pretty cleansed/good while i was tossing stuff out of cashwrap like there's no tomorrow. got a handle on how to deal w/ exception reports, was helping here and there to troubleshoot and close out zones
3:00am: chowing my 89c burrito down while helping taking off labels on the higher bars, my left arm looked like a poodle with all the curled up labels stuck all over. i wasn't really thinking at that point, it was just funny to do that. had a quick recap w/ the more experienced managers on what i've learned so far, glad they asked, when the memory was freshest.
5:00am: done! we were all dying to go home, the office is a mess but nobody cared at that point ^^;;

overall, not a disaster, definitely learned a lot about managing the process and how inventory works, and you can never prep enough, so start early and work on it consistently

ya I should've been studying for midterm... but I finished early so decided to reward myself =D

确实不错，我是看了其他人写的感受才决定看得。赵微的演技好像比我印象中的好，情节关系不是太复杂但是一环一环倒是扣出了不同方式的爱。好像都很蠢但又挺感人~

作为学美术的当然要评价一下美感：妆容不错，够妖但不太媚，多的是伤感寂寞和无奈。开始小唯突然换大家小姐衣服caught me off guard, 我以为她会一直穿有妖味的衣服~ 颜色不会太夸张，但有的时候flashback不知道是哪里跟哪里（刚开始那段儿）……晕。然后我一直觉得后面的戏里会解释说因为狐妖可以入人梦所以王生才老梦见她，但是一直也没说啥~

没有太血腥太恐怖，真正“画皮”也就两秒钟，剩下的都是两个女人的内心戏。里面的主角男人都坦诚到离谱，从妖到人。老色鬼全都在出场5分钟之内挂了……所谓的假皮真心吧~

总之还不错啦~跟原版画皮甚有出入，基本上就是借那个故事又编了一个，成凄美爱情故事了~

This is not an internship rant.

Even though my daily tasks are not the most exciting thing in the world, but I have a clear idea of where my position feeds into the bigger picture, and I'm happy with how much I'm learning about this industry that I potentially will stay in.

However, my work has also enabled me to think about my criteria for my career. It's different from "what I want to do this summer", which is much more short-term. Bottom-line is, if I'll be spending more than 1/3 of my life (assuming >8 hrs a day) time doing something, it better means something to me other than my pay.

I mean, think about it: I spend 1/3 of my life sleeping/eating, which I love; the 2nd 3rd of my life (aka personal time) with the people and hobbies that I care about. So why should the last 3rd of my life be meaningless?

I know all that junk about bad economy and me being too idealist and whatnot, but I feel the need to at least LOOK FOR a job that I enjoy, and not just settle with whatever pays the most or whatever I happen to land first.

The money issue. There is always more to be made. And more money does bring more comfort and convenience. But to me, it's not important how much I make (I'm confident that I can earn enough to live comfortably), but it's important to me who I spend it with.

Also, there's the "work hard now and retire early" approach. Well... that's a tougher one to debate, but I feel like I should enjoy life at every age (because every age only comes around once), and not wait till I deteriorate to the point where I lose my passions and THEN finally be ready to think about "how should I enjoy the rest of my life?"

I think this will be my mentality while I finish up my sponge-learning-mode internship, and patiently anticipate fall recruiting with a larger-than-ever curiousity and passion.

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*back to laundry folding, see how doing chores can be meaningful too? =D*